Over the past month or so, Frank and I have really confirmed our decision to adopt. We’ve had many, long conversations about "the plan." We have to finish our time here and then move. Once we are settled - I’m giving us one month, because I can’t wait any longer than that - we are going to send in the I600A with attached documentation and apply to the agency. We’re hoping that things will move quickly and we will be able to have our homestudy and paper collection completed within two - three months. From there it’s more hopes and tentative plans and a schedule that I’ve become obsessive about writing out for myself. I don’t know why. Maybe to make myself feel better - like this is actually going to happen someday.
I just don’t know what my deal is. I feel like I don’t want to wait to start this - can’t wait. Did anyone else feel like this? It’s strange because I’ve always been so focused on school - undergrad, getting into med school, etc. Frank has always been very focused on his work and schooling, too. I guess we’re just in a place where we are feeling ready to start a family. It’s such a strange thing to put that out there because it’s enormous! We were those people who talked about how much we love to travel and when we found out Frank couldn’t have children, we thought no big deal - we won’t have kids. I never really had an innate desire to give birth anyway. But now, we can not wait to go through this adoption. What has happened to change us? I have no idea.
So to make myself feel like something is happening, (even though it won’t until we move back to the States and actually start the adoption next year), I have printed out a few agency applications, the I600A application and some other adoption related things. I’ve even started an adoption binder with these documents in plastic covers. Inside I have also included a checklist, a list of books that have been recommended on several different blogs I have read, and a few other things that I plan to do …. ugh, enough with the planning….